Why do I want to be so skinny that my ribs show in my chest?
Why do I want to be so skinny that my thighs don't touch?
Why do I think I looked my best when I was barely eating?
Why does hindsight exist?
Why can't I have the will power my in-laws do?
Why isn't it ok for me to look like this right now?
Why is satisfaction contingent on so many things and so impossible to attain?
Do any of you feel frustrated with the way you look and even more frustrated that you are frustrated about the way you look?
I just hate feeling like this.
8.04.2009
6.25.2009
my current salad obsession
Here she is! The most glorious home made salad ever. Some of you may remember me saying that I don't like home made salads as much as restaurant salads. They just never taste as good to me. Well that is no more! I love this salad! I wish I could take total credit for it but I can't. When I lived in Tennessee there was this little tea room that sold a salad just like this minus the chicken. I would go and buy a 20 oz cup of the dressing for seven dollars a pop just so I could have it on my salads at home. Since I have no way of getting that dressing now that I'm in Tucson I've had to be creative. The dressing really makes the salad. Here is my makeshift copy cat recipe.
Honey Lime Vinaigrette (All of these measurments are guesses because I usually just eye ball it.)
1/2 cup oil
2 TBS vinegar
Juice of two limes
1 clove garlic peeled
1/8 cup honey
1 handful of cilantro (I just twist off a handful of the bunch they sell at the store)
1/2 tsp salt (maybe more)
1/4 tsp pepper (maybe more)
I throw all of these ingredients in a blender (or you could use a food processor) until it's smooth and green. Then I taste it to make sure I love it, which I always do. After drizzling a little bit over my salad I put the rest in an enclosed container and it stays well in the fridge for a few days. Its flavor is really bold so you don't need a ton.
The rest of the salad is pretty standard. Pan seared chicken breast pounded thin and seasoned with some s&p and garlic powder. Spring mix greens and a little extra spinach for good measure. Sliced strawberries, feta and some chopped pecans. Ta da! SO easy. Really I promise. And if you don't feel like cooking chicken and that whole mess the salad is just as outrageous on it's own. (One more side note here. If I go to the trouble of cooking chicken I always pound out and cook two breasts at a time. That way I only use a half of a breast on my salad and have 1 1/2 for leftovers of any kind.) Go for it! Try it! You'll like it!
Honey Lime Vinaigrette (All of these measurments are guesses because I usually just eye ball it.)
1/2 cup oil
2 TBS vinegar
Juice of two limes
1 clove garlic peeled
1/8 cup honey
1 handful of cilantro (I just twist off a handful of the bunch they sell at the store)
1/2 tsp salt (maybe more)
1/4 tsp pepper (maybe more)
I throw all of these ingredients in a blender (or you could use a food processor) until it's smooth and green. Then I taste it to make sure I love it, which I always do. After drizzling a little bit over my salad I put the rest in an enclosed container and it stays well in the fridge for a few days. Its flavor is really bold so you don't need a ton.
The rest of the salad is pretty standard. Pan seared chicken breast pounded thin and seasoned with some s&p and garlic powder. Spring mix greens and a little extra spinach for good measure. Sliced strawberries, feta and some chopped pecans. Ta da! SO easy. Really I promise. And if you don't feel like cooking chicken and that whole mess the salad is just as outrageous on it's own. (One more side note here. If I go to the trouble of cooking chicken I always pound out and cook two breasts at a time. That way I only use a half of a breast on my salad and have 1 1/2 for leftovers of any kind.) Go for it! Try it! You'll like it!
5.14.2009
Plateau
So there comes a time in every girls life when her weight loss plateaus and she is stuck. I know that this seems kind of early for a sad story about how my weight isn't moving but I am really just trying to give myself a little kick in the pants.
As you know last week I went to the gym twice and was loving it. This week, I am not so lucky. Because Violet can't go to the daycare until she is 6 weeks old, I am left to rely on Michael to babysit so I can go to the gym. Since his schedule is bananas this means that I have been to the gym exactly ZERO times this week. Ugh!
Now lets be honest, all of the weight I was losing was basically just the stuff that surrounds the baby. The extra blood, the water, the baby itself and maybe some other things like the placenta. I guess the actual "baby stuff" weighs about 15-18 pounds. If we do the math, I gained 29 then subtract 17 and we are left with the 12 I have to go. What does this mean? It means that technically I haven't lost a single pound I "ate" on. Bummer.
Here is my solution for the next 2-1/2 weeks. Eat less, Don't finish whats on my plate and only eat when I am hungry. All of these things sound simple but honestly they are easier said than done. I guess just cutting out the sweets isn't going to get me where I want to be so I am revving it up a bit.
For lunch today I had brown rice topped with steamed sugar snap peas and carrots. Sounds really bland and boring but when you add just a TINY bit of butter and fresh lemon juice and s&p to the veggies, it's actually extremely delicious. You should try it. Steam any of your favorite veggies, remembering to have as many as you want, and put it over some yummy sticky rice. You will be full and satisfied. If you need something sweet after (like I always do) then try a sweeter berry like a strawberry or have some fresh pineapple.
Heaven knows that dieting is not my best subject in weight loss school but I am realizing that the reality is I HAVE TO DO IT. Leave your dieting tips here for me and anyone else who follows this indulgent little blog. :) Thanks and good luck!
As you know last week I went to the gym twice and was loving it. This week, I am not so lucky. Because Violet can't go to the daycare until she is 6 weeks old, I am left to rely on Michael to babysit so I can go to the gym. Since his schedule is bananas this means that I have been to the gym exactly ZERO times this week. Ugh!
Now lets be honest, all of the weight I was losing was basically just the stuff that surrounds the baby. The extra blood, the water, the baby itself and maybe some other things like the placenta. I guess the actual "baby stuff" weighs about 15-18 pounds. If we do the math, I gained 29 then subtract 17 and we are left with the 12 I have to go. What does this mean? It means that technically I haven't lost a single pound I "ate" on. Bummer.
Here is my solution for the next 2-1/2 weeks. Eat less, Don't finish whats on my plate and only eat when I am hungry. All of these things sound simple but honestly they are easier said than done. I guess just cutting out the sweets isn't going to get me where I want to be so I am revving it up a bit.
For lunch today I had brown rice topped with steamed sugar snap peas and carrots. Sounds really bland and boring but when you add just a TINY bit of butter and fresh lemon juice and s&p to the veggies, it's actually extremely delicious. You should try it. Steam any of your favorite veggies, remembering to have as many as you want, and put it over some yummy sticky rice. You will be full and satisfied. If you need something sweet after (like I always do) then try a sweeter berry like a strawberry or have some fresh pineapple.
Heaven knows that dieting is not my best subject in weight loss school but I am realizing that the reality is I HAVE TO DO IT. Leave your dieting tips here for me and anyone else who follows this indulgent little blog. :) Thanks and good luck!
5.08.2009
5.07.2009
Shut up!
Okay so obviously it's about freakin' time right?! I don't really know what to say today but I wanted to start bloggin' on this blog again to hopefully help me reach my fitness goals. Like I said on my other blog, I am back at the gym. It feels really good but I hate watching the chunk in the mirror so I know I need to go back to the diet too.
I have decided that I will give up the sweets. This is so hard because I am really not giving myself any vices right now at all. I can't have any caffeine because of the boob sucker and I am on a high fiber diet because of other post pregnancy related butt issues. If you know what I mean? So cutting out sweets sounds simple in theory but in practice it is proving to be a challenge.
I have 14 pounds to go and was hoping to have them all off by six weeks. I don't know if this will happen because right now six weeks is like 26 days away. That is like almost a pound every two days or something. Possible, just not probable. However, I am still not ready to give up on my goal. I would rather aim ridiculously high and fail then set some silly goal and get lazy.
I plan on doing alot of weight lifting this time around. I want my muscles back! So even though I am jonesing to go back to Body Step and start teaching again and all of that, I plan on really focusing on hitting the weights dude. Just a little tidbit about weights (which I may have already shared before). When I was engaged my knees were acting up really bad and the orthopedic surgeon said it was either surgery or no cardio. I stopped cardio all together and just lifted hard core every day and I was smokin'. Not like those veiny body builder women either, more like I was 19 and just smokin'. :)
So there it is. Lots of weight lifting to regain and retain muscle tone, high fiber and nutritious diet, and especially no sweets. I think I can do it. Can you? Or really, a better question is, what are you doing? Hopefully something.
I have decided that I will give up the sweets. This is so hard because I am really not giving myself any vices right now at all. I can't have any caffeine because of the boob sucker and I am on a high fiber diet because of other post pregnancy related butt issues. If you know what I mean? So cutting out sweets sounds simple in theory but in practice it is proving to be a challenge.
I have 14 pounds to go and was hoping to have them all off by six weeks. I don't know if this will happen because right now six weeks is like 26 days away. That is like almost a pound every two days or something. Possible, just not probable. However, I am still not ready to give up on my goal. I would rather aim ridiculously high and fail then set some silly goal and get lazy.
I plan on doing alot of weight lifting this time around. I want my muscles back! So even though I am jonesing to go back to Body Step and start teaching again and all of that, I plan on really focusing on hitting the weights dude. Just a little tidbit about weights (which I may have already shared before). When I was engaged my knees were acting up really bad and the orthopedic surgeon said it was either surgery or no cardio. I stopped cardio all together and just lifted hard core every day and I was smokin'. Not like those veiny body builder women either, more like I was 19 and just smokin'. :)
So there it is. Lots of weight lifting to regain and retain muscle tone, high fiber and nutritious diet, and especially no sweets. I think I can do it. Can you? Or really, a better question is, what are you doing? Hopefully something.
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